went SV training agaiin le. dun wanna stayed at hm... was no mood the whole day / training. myy tears even dropp dwn when ii think bck abt the things uiie've done... during training. lucky no one was beside mii. aft training went lott walk walk for awhile & drink 1 tiger wibb myy instructer & frenzs.
ii feel tat ii habb no more confident iin uiie le. whenever ii thiink bck... ii jus feel tat ii can forgett it tat easy. feel lyk breaking up but cant bear olso. 8 months le leh! nort 8 days leh! whiie mus it happen? whiie mus lett mii found out? whiie mus uiie lied to mii? whiie mus uiie treat mii lyk an idiot? whiie mus ii anyhow thiink? whiie whiie whiie?!?! tell mii larhs!!! cried ytd aft. cried ytd niite be4 ii went to slp. cried tiis aftnoon during training. all ii can do iis to cry? ii dunno larhs. useless...
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