ytd whole day was msging with ex-bf . just normal frenz chat barh . tried hard to temporally put the feelings for him aside and continue to be normal frenzs . as he still cant think of a way for me to convince myself so we are still separated ... maybe it's not a bad thing anyway , giving ourself a break from relationship ... or he can use this break to think properly , am i for him or is she* for him , or other questions barh ... i dunno . cos i'm not his mind , idunno what he's thinking ... keep dragging the time and i'm afraid by the time our feelings for each other would have fade ... he has start his so call social smoking and drinking le ... he have broke another promised . we once promised to each other if i nv smoke or drink , he cant do that also ... but i haven start he jiu alrdyy start le ... haiz . dunno what to say abt it ... maybe he no wrong barh ... aft all we have broke up , what he want to do i cant control nor comment ... guess i'm going to start back mine soon too ... i have said be4 , i'm no longer that me anymore le ... it's tiring to be a nice person ... i will still be nice to the ppl who all the while treated me nice and for the ppls who i loves ... better still , not step on my tail , if not i dunno what ' crazy thing ' i will do to you ...
waiting for my parents to come back from market and buy our breakfast . i'm hungry ... not going out or anywhr this few days barh . commom test iscoming in 1 wk time ... buck up ! buck up ! must start my revision le ... this time gotta tell myself ' although i have no one to study for , but i must still studyin order not to lose '. shall end here ... post again =]
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