Skool as usual . Boring lessons and stuffs . Took class photos in hall . Was kinda fun? Everyone squeeze here / thr / together . Lols .
Aft skool walk-ed to Lot with frenzs . Went to The Bluez , Wenyi bought her belt then went to Food Junction ate our lunch . Aft eating , went dwn bought my ice-cream and went home .
Morning had some quarrels with BF , over some matters . But i guess everything is fine now . This is our conversation ; ( Warning ; It's very long )
Me ; Laogong ... I think le ... Maybe aft our 1yr i will give up barh ... ( for a long time he didn't reply me ) Me ; You still slping or what? Stone eh ... BF ; Oh ... Y u wanna give up? As in? Me ; I dunno ... Cos i dun think we will be able to continue happily? Alot of things sure will happen again de ... BF ; Haix ... I knew it de ... Dis few daes nth will happen de ... Dunno y i do nth oso will happen ... Me ; Huh? What you mean you do nth also got something happen? What thing happen? BF ; I mean i do nth oso need to quarrel wit u ... If u noe liao y still wanna buy a couple ring? Haix ... Me ; As in? You mean few days ago we quarrel de? Ytd nite i then think de ... You regretted buying? BF ; Yes ... Few daes we quarrel de ... I realli regret buying lo ... U sae give up jiu give up ... Oso nv tink of how i feel ... Nvm ... After i take the ring i will juz throw it away ... I dun wan it anymore ... Act i dun feel like buyin de ... Cos i keep thinkin will we last ... Me ; No ... Cannot throw away the ring ... Is you ... Everytime we quarrel or what sure will go tell your frenzs de . If is Rik or panda i can accept ... But why must be her*? Somemore she also got BF liao ... Her BF in camp cannot pei her then she come fine you izzit? Or you go find her ... BF ; I tell you liao mi n her nth de ... She askin mi abt ~ ... I wont like her n she oso wont like mi de ... I oso wont snatch my bro de GF ... I nt bastard ... She juz ask mi for advice ... Me ; Say is like that say larhs ... But one day really happen who knows wor? And i am so disappointed when i see you sent her ' still will quarrel somemore de ' ... We dun meant for each other izzit? No fate / destiny? BF ; Wont happen de lo ... U lidat tink dats y tinks will becum lidat ... For nth i kena accuse lo ... I nv do wrong oso let u sae ... Me ; You claim you didn't do but i also dunno izzit the truth not ... Aftall you lied to me so many times le , lie again i also dunno marh ... Right? I feel that we are not meant for each other le ... Last time i dun have this feeling de ... BF ; Last time i lied to u alot ... But i nv lied to u liao ... If lidat tat time y u give mi chance? If u had given mi a chance so u had to trust mi ... But u nv ... Dats y we gt so mani misunderstanding ... Me ; That time be4 i gave you the chance i also alrdy tell you le ... I dun think i will be able to build my trust in you like last time ... Is you say ok , you dun mind ... I want ask you again ... You really regrett buying the couple ring with me? BF ; Ya ... As u noe we wont last y still wanna buy ... Buy liao nw lidat ... In the end oso finish ... Is meaningless ... Everydae i had been thinkin wat will happen the next dae ... So dis is the outcome ... Me ; So you also think that we will end soon izzit? BF ; I juz hope wont happen de ... But u already sae dat ... Den wat makes mi tink abt dat ... Me ; I dunno what i do then you will be satisfy ... You want freedom i alrdy give you le ... You want me dun bite my nails i am now trying ... You want me dun contact guys i also nv talk to my buddy they all le ... What you want / wish for i all did my best le ... I can be the GF that you want but why cant you be the BF that i wish for? BF ; Ya ... But i m tryin my veri best to becum a gd BF liao ... As u oso can see it wit ur own eyes de ... I realli have change alot liao ... Me ; I know but i dun dare to trust it ... I dun want hurt myself double the pay back ... BF ; Dats y u dun dare to trust ... Den how m i goin to becum a gd BF ... Den how can we last ... Dats means all those effort dat i put in is a waste izzit? Me ; I didn't say that ... Becos i alrdy have phobia le ... Each time i give you a chance , in the end i hurt myself back double ... I gave you 6th chances , means i hurt myself 12 le ... BF ; Ya ... I noe ... But i gt told u b4 ma ... I wan u to trust mi the last time le ... I m doin my job as a BF liao ... Can u let mi have the chance to b a gd BF? I wan b together wit u ... Me ; But i am very sensative when you talk to any gals ... Even if is attached de ... BF ; Oh ... Den i dun tok to gals k? I will juz tok to guys ... Den onli wit panda n RenZheng they all ... If those attach de i juz ignore them lo ... For ur sake i wanna change ... Cos i realli need u alot ... Me ; You can dun talk to them but they will come talk to you or play with you de marh ... Example *** lor ... BF ; If i tell her she will understand de ... I will tell ~ to tell her dun ply ... If i ignore her she oso will sian de ... Me ; Then she sure will not happy de lor ... BF ; She understand de ... Somemore she oso nt small kids liao ... Even if she nt happy i oso dun care ... I juz wan u to b happy ... Me ; Oh ok ... Then when are you going to tell her? BF ; I goin to tell her dun cum n ply wit mi or disturb mi ... She oso will noe de ... I will let ~ noe abt it ... Den he will oso tell her ... Me ; Oks ... Then when are you going to tell them? BF ; When ~ book out nor ... Dis fri i will tell them ... Me ; Ok ... Means tmr lor ... I will pay you back $44 ( as it is the half-price of the total amount ) for the couple ring since you regretted buying ... BF ; But u still wanna give up on dis relationship ah? If i tell them le ... I wanna b wit u n wear the ring 4ever ... I dun wan u to return mi the money ... I wan u to keep the ring ... Me ; I dunno how to ans you liao wor ... *Blahblahblah*
BF , i hope whatever you said in this conversation are true . And prove it to me . As for your last sentence , i didn't know how to reply you at that time , but i know it now . If you dun do those things ( the things that i dun like and not approve ) again / anymore / forever , i dun want give up on this relationship . i will love you forever . Ok?
